KAHWIN

Our first anniversary was on 31st August 2013. Kami balik kampung. Ibu masak special and kami makan secret recipe. My favourite chocolate indulgence. How lovely. Alhamdulillah, all went well. I am five month pregnant. Belum scan lagi baby lelaki ke perempuan.

Post ni bukan nak cerita pasal baby hehe. Nak tunjuk gambr nikah dengan kahwin je. Mengimbas memori katanya...

Again, we book everything with Nananko Bridal. Sama macam bertunang, semuanya buat sesimple yang boleh. We kept in mind yang lepas kahwin lagi banyak nak pakai duit. So, semua tempah dengan Nanako, jimat dan senang runding, tak pening. Dari baju bersanding, make-up, wedding photoshoot (both nikah & outdoor) dan pelamin. Overall, kami puas hati dengan harga dan kerja mereka. Alhamdulillah. 

Gambar nikah & sanding. Oh ye, bilik pengantin je tak tempah. Hias sendiri dengan bantuan sahabat handai dan saudara mara :)

Lepas ni mungkin boleh update pasal kerja, memandangkan sekarang dah tukar profession. Alhamdulillah, rezeki baby..!

Germany has a Never Ending Story

Got this from you-whom-I-love-the-most (^-^)

thank you so much. Sangat cantik t-shirt ini di mata saya.

ooohhh yeah.. Malaysians, you have to note this. The price is 20 euro. That's simply means... ask currency converter..!

Musim Kenduri Kahwin

Start minggu ni, every weekend ada wedding ex-Hamidian and SKD. Mentang-mentang lah dah start cuti sekolah kan. Sampai takde gap dorang buat wedding. Hehehe… pening gak nak pergi semua ni. Fulus needed okeh. Duit minyak, hadiah untuk pengantin, makan on the way nak pergi tu kalau wedding jauh lah. Tapi kan, satu tabiat I kalau takde geng, tak pergi lah jawabnya ^-^ bukan senang nak pergi wedding kalau takde member. Nanti nak sembang takde geng, sangat lah tak syok. Lagipun, driver takde, terbang pergi Germany. Sob3 sedih~

Siap tulis salam perantauan.. sangat poyo ok..! haha

cepat balik...!

rindu kamu

Building Relationship

It takes two to tango

That’s how you maintain good relationship

our feelings falter when we are weary

I don’t have energy for anyone when I’m weary

I become dependent on anyone who shows me the slightest concern

That is how a girl feels

That's how when someone we love leave her

So, don't worry when a girl cares about you so much so it irritates you. Starts to worry when she doesn't care any more.

Have faith in love. Try to understand your partner. Read about them physically and psychologically. InsyaAllah you will get along well together.

Reading

It has been years I was away from myself. When I am supposed to be aware instead of away from me. After I read Jodi Picoult then i realized that I were once a sucker for books. Any types and anything relating to sports, machines, love, fiction and what not, should be fine. I am now in my 20s, not really interested in reading books, holding a law degree,  and yet not sure what am I going to do with it - given the fact that I am dying concluding my 2nd degree. I am keen to learn but I currently not into books. I love reading but not enjoying them when it comes to exam. Oh al-Khaliq, please give me back those interest which were once blossoms in me. I'd like to have them back. To the end of my life.

Unbreak My Heart (Regresa A Mi)

No me abandones así
hablando sólo de ti.
Ven y devuelveme al fin
la sonrisa que se fue.
Una vez más tocar tu piel
el hondo suspirar.
Recuperemos lo que se ha perdido.

Regresa a mí,
quéreme otra vez,
borra el dolor
que al irte me dio
cuando te separaste de mí.
Dime que sí
Ya no quiero llorar,
regresa a mí.

Extraño el amor que se fue,
extraña la dicha también.
Quiero que vengas a mí
y me vuelvas s querer.
No puedo más si tú no estás,
tienes que llegar.
Mi vida se apaga sin ti a mi lado.

[Chorus]

No me abandonas así,
hablando sólo de ti.
Devuelveme la pasión de tus brazos.

ENTAH MENGAPA

Kilauan kaca engkau sembahkan

Pada hatiku engkaulah intan

Sepi mengapa kasih membisu

Kamar hatimu bertamu resah

Kasih mengapa masih merindu

Semalam kita bertemu sudah

Mengungkap madah

Bersulam kata bertahta sumpah

Usah kau sangsi

Usah curiga

Cintaku teguh belum pun runtuh

Menjadi rata gunung biarlah

Aku setia

Entah mengapa

Gelora cinta kian membara

Walau hanya seketika

Tak ku sangka sehebat ini merindui

Belaianmu

Kilauan kaca engkau sembahkan

Pada hatiku engkaulah intan

Pentas lautan ku jadi taruhan

Sanggup ku lemas hanya untuk

Aku buktikan

Taman hatiku berbunga kasih

Tasik cintamu moga mendalam

Kita bersatu menyemai kasih

Kemarau luka jangan diundang

SURAT SAYANG DARI DIA

Ayang…

Ingat lagi masa kita mula-mula kenal?

Masa tu abang matrik last sem. Sem 2 second year kat matrik uiam. Tempat mana yang bagi abang kenal ayang abang. Masa tu macam2 abang rasa, walaupun awalnya macam serba salah  tapi abang rasa macam abang betul2 nak mengenali ayang.

Masa abang dah masuk uia Gombak abang x nak putus asa untuk mengenali ayang. Abang tetap anta sms untuk abang dapat kenal dengan zie.

Then, masa paling abang x dapat lupakan masa s.sem abang second year kat uia Gombak, abang duduk sebelah ayang masa final exam Bahasa Melayu untuk kerjaya. Abang macam cam ayang walaupun masa tu kita belum pernah bertemu. Ayang pakai baju merah x salah abang, abang nak tegur tapi abang malu. hee

Masa ayang balik tu, abang tengok ayang macam tengah tunggu someone kat tangga tinggi. Bagi abang, kitalah pasangan paling bahagia sebab walau macamana masalah kita akan cuba selesaikan secepat mungkin. Kadang2 abang mengaku abang x dapat control diri abang yang cepat marah. Kadang tu sebab abang nak kan perhatian ayang. Ayang masih ingat panggilan kita masa mula2 kenal??

Abang ngah & zie

Banyak kenangan kita zie. Abang harap kenangan tu akan jadi titik manis kehidupan kita bila kita bergelar Suami Isteri nanti. Abang percaya pada takdir, Dia telah menetapkan bahawa abang adalah untuk ayang dan ayang untuk abang.

Ayang akan menjadi permaisuri hidup abang yang akan menemani abang setiap masa, walaupun kita akan bekerja, abang janji abang x kan lupa kirimkan sms cinta untuk permaisuri abang.

Kalau ayang selalu kata abang mengada, manja.. abang mengaku semua tu sebab abang cuma ada ayang sorang yang abang akan berkongsi apa je yang abang ada. Abang senang dengan ayang yang selalu dengar apa masalah abang.

Masa abang mula-mula kenal family ayang, abang segan tapi abang rasa baik abang kenal dengan ibu ngan ayah sebab abang nak ibu ayah tahu denga siapa insan bernama Roziliana berkawan.

Abang senang dengan semua ahli keluarga ayang. Abang sayang ayang..

Kalau ayang nak tahu, abang suka sangat bila abang dapat mesej dari ayang.. dan kat situ kata “zie sayang abang”, walaupun kadang-kadang memang abang dapat mesej abang bucuk, abang tau zie nak cakap ayang sayang abang..

Ayang…

Sedar x sedar dah dekat 4 tahun kan kita kenal?

Saat-saat romantik bila abang makan dengan ayang dan abang dapat suap ayang makan. Dan abang selalu harap kebahagiaan kita akan kekal selama lamanya ayang…

Ayang...

Abang nak ayang tau yang abang rindukan ayang. Ayang cakap abang kuat cemburu.

Abang mengaku abang memang kuat cemburu, tapi ayang pun tau napa abang cemburu kan ..

Sebab ayang satu-satunya cinta hati abang.

Ayang…

Bila abang duduk jauh dari ayang abang selalu fikir apa la ayang tengah buat tu. Ayang, abang tengah rindukan ayang ni…

                    

Ayang…

Selepas ayang abes bateri 16-17hb 6 2009

Abang hilang punca. Tapi masa pun takkan biarkan abang dan ayang berjauhan…

I love u soooo much…

PUISI CINTA UNTUKNYA

Aku cuma seorang perempuan

Bila aku kata cinta itulah kata hatiku

Bila aku kata benci mungkin aku cuma merajuk

Aku cuma minta dipujuk

Terkadang aku menyesal kerana marah

Tapi kerana aku seorang perempuan

Walaupun marah aku tetap sayang

Kala duduk seorang diri

Tak ada lain di ingatan

Cuma buah hatinku yang ku rindu

Mindaku berkata

“sudahlah… waktu berlalu meninggalkanmu…”

Lalu aku meninggalkan anganku & bingkas melaksanakan tugas

Namun

Usai kerja aku masih teringatkan cintaku

Ingatanku masih padanya

Kenangan waktu bersama membuai perasaan

Lalu minda mengingatkan

“Cintamu tak ke mana-mana…”

Tapi bila hatiku berkata

“Aku tetap rindukan dia”

Mindaku berhenti berbicara

Sesaat kemudian minda bertanya

“Andai ajal datang menjemputmu, apakah kau masih ridukan dia?”

“Mungkin”

“Adakah kau pasti dengan tuturmu?”

“Hm… aku tidak tahu…kerana aku belum melalui saat itu…”

“Lebih baik engkau pastikan. Kerana Nabi sehingga akhir waktunya masih menyebut-nyebut umatnya. Umat yang terlalu dia cintai. Jika kau tidak mencintai Nabimu seperti mana kau mencintai dia, mungkin kau tidak pantas menjadi umat kepada Nabimu…”

Aku berhenti sejenak

Berhenti memikirkan soal hatiku dan cintaku

Lalu meninggalkan duniaku dan cuba belajar sirah

Nabi itu terlalu menyayangi umatnya

“kalau aku tidak mencintai dia, kelak, mahukah dia memberikan shafaatnya buatku?”

Tetapi

Tetapi, aku tetap perempuan itu

Yang kadang kala mengingati Nabinya

Tetapi di kebanyakan waktu mengingati cinta hatiku

Pada al Ghafur aku memohon ampun

Dan akulah perempuan itu

Sekali aku cinta selama-lamanya tetap cinta

FALLING FOR HIM

Sedikit ucapan sebelum sambung love story: kenapa I share the story with you all? Tak tau la napa for sure tapi I’d love to hear yours too so I think I should be sharing mine before reading yours. If you do have one, drop me the link. I’ll be there!

That when I was in Matric, PJ. He left PJ early so I thought he is one year older. Rupanya, dia lompat class masa PTS dulu. That’s why he is my senior in UIA. Living in UIA main camp, many friends of mine getting themselves a boyfriend. I was not really into it coz I don’t think he is my boyfriend. He is my friend, but a special one. I’m not sure what he thinks of me.

My first year in main camp, I asked him, abang ngah tak sayang zie ke? – that was after I hinted him thousand times that I love him, miss him, adore him, etc but he is yet to said so. I was embarrassed but then lega bila dia jawab camni, “kalau abang ngah tak sayang zie, abang ngah tak reply dah mesej zie. Sori abang ngah baru bangun...” Afterwards, mesej jadi bunga-bunga cinta la kan. Yelah before that main tarik tali, nak cakap good night sweet dream pun segan. I wonder how my face looks like back then. Sure merah kan? Malu lah I made the move. Tapi, terpaksa tanya.

The day before that, I heard my classmate talking about him like she is his girlfriend. I know she wasn’t but what if she is? Recently I did ask him about her. What happen back then. He admits that she try him. I mean she ask him out for meal, wayang, jalan-jalan. So I wonder what his response is. He said “takde ape lah. Abang tak reply mesej dia pun”. Meaning? Kalau he replied, maybe he will not be mine now, kan? Memang I jealous. He went to her wedding. I think he shouldn’t. Tapi, tak patut I stop him kan? Dia betul-betul takde perasaan kat kak Eton tu so why not he attended her wedding? Hahha. Since then I know that I pun kuat cemburu jugak rupanya. Tapi sampai sekarang I’m quite allergic – just hearing her name. I hate her. I really do. How come she likes my man? Dush!

Di sebalik itu, ada jugak baiknya… then I know that he’s quite hot, marketable and he didn’t simply fall for another woman. Sebab lama jugak I heard about him from kak Eton. Of course she didn’t mention it to me. I overheard je. You must be wondering how come kak Eton tu kenal dia pulak kan? I am a law student and he is engineering. Kak Eton pulak budak IRK – budak suci orang panggil – Islamic reveal knowledge. It was my bahasa class, so memang tu kelas campur. Pulak tu kak Eton tu x-classmate dia. Ceh. Patut la beria-ia cerita. Depa kenai rupanya. Satu sekolah. I memang jealous habis la time tu. Merajuk kot. Ok, walaupun bukan salah dia. My bad.

There is another incident masa kat pasar malam. Masa tu, he came to my house, meeting my family. That evening we went to pasar malam. On the way home, ada sorang budak tu pandang dia tak berkelip. Yelah I know his face is not familiar to orang kampung tapi tak perlu la tengok sampai camtu kan? Apa dia tak nampak ke I was there. I am not his sister! Rasa cam nak cubit pipi budak tu. Hii geram. Tapi, dalam hati happy la jugak. Hensem jugak mamat ni ye. Aku kat sebelah pun masih ada orang pandang. (ok, padahal dia dah macam laki orang. Buncit :D)

It has been 5 years and still I don’t really know if I really love him. Teruk kan? Bukan la tak sayang but I gave him half of my heart, I think. In case dia pergi dulu sebelum I, takde lah menangis separuh mati kot. Tapi, how would I know? In many cases, if I missed him – like a lot sebab dah lama tak jumpa – mesti nangis. I know it is not healthy but when it comes to heart, I can’t control, can I?

So, that’s all for now. I will post his letter for me. Tapi, later la k. I forgot the date but I think it was during my third year UIA.

Till then,

Bersambung… 

FALLING IN LOVE

How do i know that i fell in love? Una, i bet you wanna know the story. hihihi... since you are practically hopping into my blog each time i post a new post **apakah ayat aku ni** haha. Anyway, thanks dear :)

Takla lama sangat tapi lama la jugak kot. He found me. I have no idea where did he got my phone no. Anyway, he found me.  I received a missed call. Every single day. Ever since, if he did not, i miss the "missed call". Weird. Normally, i get annoyed with such things but this is an exception to general rule.

Until one day, i asked him who is he? He didn't really answer me. Anyhow, as things goes on, we kept messaging each other. Later on i found out that dia pun budak UIA - engineering. OK. Not bad.. Memilih gak rozi ni kan? dush!
(^-^)

However, I was 18 and i guess i'm not ready for love, commitment and anything attached therein. It was then one night, he didn't reply my message. He was busy. Engineering student - UIA la kan - they have a lot of tests and lab reports. I try to be understanding but i simply can't. I cried and cried until i fall into sleep. It was ony 10 o'clock.

And so i think that is really something. Why do i have to cry over a message from God-know-who-the hell is he. haha. If this is love, and if he left me, i wouldn't be able to gather myself and stand on my own feet. I really lost in myself.

I decided to leave him. Instead of him leaving - which i am not sure if he will but i rather not taking the risk. I left him but making sure that he know the reason. Alhamdulillah, he understand. And so we stop. Yes. We did. i promise myself that i will never called him again despite the fact that i missied him. If he come back looking for me, i will love him again. If he didn't, then he is not my meant to be. Oh..! I really missed him. I did.

4 Mei 2006, he called me. He didn't. Missed call je. hehe. I was so happy. HE heard my prayers and he did missed me too. He was coming back to the matriculation center for his full transcript back then. Dah siap-siap masa tu, if he wanna see me, i will see him. Tekad tu :D


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